Still bruised from his delivery.
I am so emotional as I sit here writing this. I just never knew you could love someone so much. 365 days ago we were welcoming Reeves into our lives. We had gotten his nursery ready. We had dedicated a cabinet in the kitchen to his stuff. We'd read (skimmed) all the books, talked with all the friends who were already parents, and tried to get as much sleep as we could. And then the miracle happened. And there is absolutely no way to have adequately gotten prepared. The emotions, the fears, the love, the fascination - I have yet to come across anything that truly conveys what a first time parent feels. Oh, I've read lots of things that have come close, and talked to people who have felt the same way, but there is always that something missing. I make no claims to be able to verbalize it here because I don't think it can be. There are not words to describe it. It's just something that is there - the look in the eye, the breath on your face, the complete abandon with which this child relies on you and knows you will do anything in your power for him, for the rest of your life. These are just some of the things that we, as parents, all know. 
If we can just grab an hour's sleep, if he'll just take one more ounce, just give us a wet diaper so that we'll know all your systems are working properly. All these things that make the first three months so exhausting and hard are the same things we look back on and laugh at, and they're the same things that, for some strange reason, we all look forward to having again.
Reeves is truly a blessing to us. He amazes me and his daddy more and more each day. I look back on this past year with so many emotions. Joy in watching him grow and learn, saddness to know that he will never be a little baby again, gladness at seeing the wonder with which he greets each new day.
365 little days, one year. What a drop in the bucket, yet what a difference a year makes.
Mark 10:14 says, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these." Children are God's way of letting us get a glimpse of what the kingdom of heaven is. It is innocence and purity and hope.
If you look in a child's eyes, that is what you see, and that is what grabs your heart and never lets go.
Reeves, Thanks for the best year of my life. I can't wait to see what's next!
7 comments:
I am so glad that I am at home and Stephen is no where around to see me BALLING my eyes out. What a sweet sweet tribute and so true. I remember Reeves in those first pictures, but it seems so long ago. What a cutie!
Waterworks here! Reeves is so blessed to have you as parents! I hope he had a wonderful birthday! Sending hugs and kisses to you all!
Elizabeth, Chris, & James
Isn't it amazing how fast it all goes by! We hope you all had a wonderful day playing together and celebrating the blessings of your boy(s)!!
You had me crying too. What a special oy you have. We love him so much.
crying, at my desk, eating lunch.
wow......
Kak, that was so beautifully written and so true. Happy birthday to your sweet little man!
How sweet! Where are my kleenex? :) Happy birthday Reeves!
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