Sheer Agony

Today I feel better than I have all week, and that's not to say I feel great, but I am up to about 75% which is far better than the -50% I was earlier. I have been attacked by the worst swimmer's ear I have ever had, quite possibly the worst swimmer's ear anyone has ever had. (I put that in just for you, Mom!)

On Tuesday morning we took Reeves to the hospital to have his endoscopy. He did perfectly, and the procedure actually took place on time. He recovered quickly from the anesthesia, and, much to my disappointment, didn't feel like he needed to sleep for the rest of the day. Unfortunately for him, my left ear had started hurting worse than ever. I couldn't hear anything out of it, and it was swollen and painful. I didn't have the energy to force him to take his nap. Bennett had spent Monday night with the Bairs, so when Bryant finished his day, he came home and got Reeves to go with him to go get Bennett. So sweet. This would give me time to rest and hopefully recover. No such luck. Two hours after they left, the pain was worse than ever. I called my dad. Through the tears, I asked him if he thought it would be overkill to go to the ER for swimmer's ear. He came and got me. There was something oddly reminiscent about having him take me to the ER. It is a trip he and I have taken many times over the years. I was finally sent home with Lortab, Augmenten, and Cipro drops.

So this is what my days have been since Tuesday - drugs, drops, and sleep. My children stayed out in the country this whole time. I can't thank the Bairs enough for their help with the boys. There was no way I would have been able to take care of either of them. The Lortab was the only thing in those first days that would even touch the pain, and, since they made me dizzy, nauseous, and tired, I just wouldn't have been able to mommy. We're heading out today to see the boys. I miss them more than I thought I would. Bryant has seen them everyday, but somehow, his reports just aren't quite fulfilling enough. I can't wait to have them in my arms.

I've said it before, I would rather give birth without an epidural than have this ear infection. This is by far the most neverending pain I have ever been in.